illusions

A year after single handedly organizing the In Vitro staff for our professional organization Societas Vitae, I am giving up my position as ASSISTANT VICE-PRESIDENT for publications. This is a post to express why. ( I will not hold out on anything out of respect or whatever... they didn't give the same fucking considerations anyway!)

The months grow and let days past,

The months grow and let days past,

Today is August 23, 2008.

I graduated March 2007,

After 2 summers, i finally go back to my Alma Mater- my world for 9 years.

My coming back wasn't planned at all. I woke up this morning with a message saying from my sister saying dad want's me to come home that instant. SO GREAT! my plans got screwed.

I was supposed to go the library for KASPIL before i go out with my friends, but since i suddenly made a trip to batangas, i was left with no other choice but to settle for the library here-DLSL.

I called my cousin up so she'd go around with me, texted my old friend so we'd meet up, and fixed my self up to look decent.

It didn't take 5 seconds for somebody i know to say 'HI!' (talk about keeping it low :P). Honestly, it was great seeing people again. But damn, i was so weirded out... i was away from people too long. and then once i said good bye to my friend, i went off to the IS... and well... if i thought the people were overwhelming... seeing my old teachers was even more of a daze...

BUT IT WAS FUN!!!
so much for anti-social me hahahaha

I spent around 3-4 hours on campus, not too long since the library wasn't available. The only thing i was able to accomplish really was getting my yearbook (very much overdue), i've been thinking about getting it for a really long time now. But now as i think about it, the whole day was amazing.

De La Salle Lipa really is a place to go back to!

People who've known me for since first year high school would know how special the raven is for me. It was in fact the title of my first blog entry, a poem that i wrote for the school paper, and of course my favorite alias. Well, there's a big something about the raven that only a select number of people know about. This is the story behind the RAVEN...

Back in the 6th grade, two of my closest friends and i decided that we wanted to make a comic book. I did the designs of the characters, they helped with the plot, and well basically we were just having fun. After a while, we all got tired of it and some of us went our seperate ways, but i revamped it again and again until i became satisfied with what i had.

From a cyborg, i turned the main character into a real human... and from japan... i moved the setting to my own fictional place in SEA. But most of all, from Kasumi i changed the lead character's name to raven.

Since my friends and i decided to make an action kind of series, i kept that element of it. So my lead character, who's name became Sophia would be part of some group (classic action plot in anime) which i decided to call Black Bird- i was young and i wanted a really dark name for their team. from there i decided that the code name of Sophia would be Raven.

I wrote several versions of the first chapters of RAVEN, i even made versions of the logo in paint ( photoshop wasn't that popular yet back then), until i got tired of it and decided to make another revamp of the story. To this day, if it were not for the unfortunate incident that i would talk about later, my mind is still working on how RAVEN should go.

I've kept RAVEN with me, along with the tons of designs i did for the characters, and all the other things i wrote all these years. But now i have to say farewell to a part of myself, why?

Because of an 'accident'.

My computer was reformated by two people who didn't have the decency to make sure that a back-up of the files has been made.By the time one of them asked me, the start button was already pressed. Down the drain everything went.

Now as i recall the things that i kept in my profile, i couldn't help but remember how special they were to me. You see, the only organized thing i have is my computer profile. EAch end of the school year, i re-check my files, delete the unneccesary ones, and categorize into specific folders the ones i'd keep. My columns in the news paper, along with my editorials, news articles, poems, some fanfiction, and the award winning adaptation of the Merchant of Venice my best friends and i wrote went down the drain.

I was hysterically crying up until now. That was 5 years of myself gone in a flash.

so i guess i have to say good bye to raven now...'cause i know i'm gonna have to move on... just as my dad said to me a while ago... there's nothing we can do, i can't let this be a reason for my failure.

Farewell Raven

a message from one of the members of BMAP or the Biology Majors Association of the Philippines read that people are saying ill things about biology students and the course it self.
since i had nothing better to do and since i simply cannot let this go i replied:
To state that BS-Biology is a futile and pointless course is to make a
declaration with
no grounds and of ill knowledge. As defense from these allegations, i would like
to
disprove the arguments which were mentioned.
First is the claim that one becomes old and financially poor when taking
this course.
BS-Biology, in its primary nature, is a course geared for medicine; which, may
unneedingly
be said, will lead you to a profession called "Doctor of Medicine"- a profession
which is
undisputedly stable and lucrative. Though there are fewer and fewer people
pursuing this
employment, it still does not take away the fact that being a doctor leads to a
very
luxurious life, or at least to a financially easy life. Furthermore, the other
professions
served by this course, like research in microbiology, parasitology, etc. may not
be popular
here in the philippines, but are certainly sought after in many countries, most
especially
the United States. Pharmacuetical companies are in great need of researchers for
these
people are the legs they stand on perse. Being a researcher may not be as
glamorous as
being a doctor, but it still pays well.
And with regards to the claim that there are no demands for graduates of
this course,
i must reitirate my statement in the previous paragraph, jobs open for biology
graduates
may not be as popular in the philippines, but they are very much in demand in
other
countries. Though the demand is not as glaring as in nursing and computer
science
graduates, the demand is still there and the supply levels of biology graduates
are much
less as compared to the afforementioned courses. So i close this paragraph with
the
question: in the law of supply and demand, which case will prove to be more
lucrative?
Finally, in the statement that BS-Biology graduates have no social
impact, i must say
to be the most ungrounded claim of them all. Biology is the study of life, it
entails
everything from the smallest creature to the entire system which our world
operates, it is
from this sphere of life does society operate. Biology is the key to
understanding our
world. Social issues quite commonly heard these days are issues on global
warming,
pollution, deforestation, pouching, etc. are all biological issues, most
understood by
BIOLOGY MAJORS. How are people going to explain the catastrophes in the recent
land
slides due to the great typhoons which ravaged the land? How are people going to
know
why pollution is detrimental to health? How cleaning the waterways will
eliminate bacteria?
and so on, all of these are topics covered in biology.
So now i ask what further evidence is needed to prove how important
BS-Biology is to
this society.

note:
I hope this will help shut those people up :)

,raven_ria
VP-Publications
Societas Vitae
De La Salle University-Manila


I know it's long... but what heck.. to hell with those people!!!

For scores and scores i've traveled
and have journeyed far from lands
yet now that i have returned to this scorned place
I find not despair, nor frustration,
but joy in the most peculiar ways

As i healed my self from yesterdays battle,
i find myself ever bleeding,
from the wounds dealt by shards,
of glasses thrown in anger

i may toss and turn out angst
but to no avail will my worries be
until i find that which i seek,
in erised's other half.

the pain of lashes,

the deepness of the grooves inflicted,

not by daggers of driven by another's hand,

but by oneself,

Lacerations,

Self-lacerations,

the lowests most evil,

pain inflicted,

the agony,

the hate,

everything,

i hate..........

Is everything a Self inflicted Laceration brings,

SELFISHNESS is all there is,