illusions

It's really been a while since I last posted something, the last few ones were even rants. Well life's been a bit down for me lately.
let's just say some might call this Karma... But I'd rather call it revenge by a self-pitying, self-absorbed person.
I've got to give credit to this person, I never knew that I mind like the one this person has is capable of deducing such a well thought out plan for vengeance, but bad for this person those around me have already move. I may have lost my queen but the bishops and knights are still complete, my opponent hasn't even gotten close to ruining my defense.
but that queen hit me hard.
well I've got to thank this person for one thing though, I felt nervousness again, not because of my opponent but because of the weapon used on me... But I guess the word blackmail would be more appropriate.
it has been four years since I last felt shame, nervousness, and embarrassment because of one person. Yes... I probably do have a complex.
but I am still very thankful that my best friend was there to assure me of everything, with big brother and all the others... I've got my complex back on track.

let's just hope I meet all the deadlines.